gumaaN

There’s this feeling, that one can get, every now and then, of something nagging. It doesn’t necessarily have to do with anything.. anything in particular, but something.. perhaps, someone, perhaps not. I think in this new nazm, I tried to capture it, though I might have failed miserably, but heck, it ended up being a nazm anyway… so here it is:

gumaaN
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maiN saRak ke isi kone pe khaRaa rahtaa houN
ek besood tamanna meiN ghiraa rahtaa houN
maiN ne har aas ka har deep bujhaa rakkhaa hai
dil kii aavaaz ko dil hi meiN dabaa rakkhaa hai

mere atraaf ajab bheeR hai logoN ki magar
koii bhi aaNkh uThaataa nahiiN meri jaanib
aur idhar maiN bhi kisii fikr meiN khoyaa, gumsum
Khud ko is gardish-e-duniyaa se alag rakhtaa houN
ek besood tamannaa meiN ghiraa rahtaa houN

aaKhir is dard ka koii to sabab hogaa hi
meraa maazi?
mire afkaar?
miri bazm-e-hayaat?
sochtaa to houN magar soch nahiiN paataa houN

maiN saRak ke isii kone pe khaRaa rahtaa houN
maiN ne Khud se bhi koii baat chhupaa rakkhii hai
aur ummeed ki har shammaa bujhaa rakkhii hai
dil ko phir bhi ye gumaaN hai k koii aayegaa….
15/Oct/2007

mire vaadoN ko gin_naa chhoR do tum

Here’s a Ghazal that I wrote about a year ago (before which I had taken a two year break from writing Urdu poetry), hence the Ghazal is nothing really great, though some couplets are nice, but its over-all very light-hearted and contains easy to understand language..

mire va’adoN ko gin_naa chhoR do tum
muhabbat ko parakhnaa chhoR do tum

Q
wafaa kaa daavaa kis se kar rahee ho
mujhe aise banaanaa chhoR do tum

aur us par poochhti ho “kyaa hua hai?”
aray! ghairoN se milnaa chhoR do tum

vahaaN par dostii bas naam kii hai
vahaaN kaa aanaa-jaanaa chhoR do tum

bichhaRne ki jo dil meiN Thaan lii hai
bahaane par bahaanaaa, chhoR do tum

hamaaraa rishta ik ummeed par thaa
magar ab vo fasaanaa chhoR do tum

mujhe ma’aloom hai anjaam-e-ulfat
vafaa ke geet gaanaa chhoR do tum!

agar qismat meiN fitne hi likhe haiN
to har aafat pe ronaa chhoR do tum

ye zauq-e-shaayari to Theek hai par
ghazal ko nazm kahnaa chhoR do tum

Khudaa kaa Khauf mujhko bhi hai yaaro!
mujhe kaafir bulaanaa chhoR do tum

aur ab maqta arz hai…

sanamkhaanoN meiN ‘tanhaa’ kuchh nahiiN hai
vahaaN par sar jhukaanaa chhoR do tum

August/05/2006

zaraa nigaah uThaao k kuchh qaraar aaye

Continuing with posting my own poetry (which is just a few Ghazals and Nazms that I wrote here and there), here’s another one of my proud creations.

zaraa nigaah uThaao k kuchh qaraar aaye
mai-e-nashaat pilaao k kuchh qaraar aaye

vafaa kii sham’aa jalaao k kuchh qaraar aaye
zaraa qareeb to aao k kuchh qaraar aaye

siyaah raat ke khaamosh sard lamhoN meiN
hamaaraa dil hi jalaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!

fazaaeiN guuNjatii hoN pyaar ke suroN meiN jahaaN
vahiiN kii baat sunaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!

mirii hayaat kii tanhaaiyoN ko dekho to!
abhii na chhoR ke jaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!

khizaayeiN mujhko rulaati haiN har baras aa kar
bahaaro! tum bhi rulaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!!

maiN muntazir huuN azal se k tum se mil baiThouN!
kabhii to mujhko bulaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!

tumhaare jaane se dil muztarib hai shaam-o-sahar
kabhii to lauT ke aao k kuchh qaraar aaye!

bahut sunaa chuke ulfat ke geet aie “tanhaa”
ab AISII baat sunaao k kuchh qaraar aaye!!

11/16/2003

unki aaNkhoN se chhalak jaate haiN paimaane kaii

Here’s a ghazal that I also recited in a mushaira that took place in Montreal.  The Ghazal got a lot of applauds, thankfully and was well received by the audience there.

1.
unkii aaNkhoN se chhalak jaate haiN paimaane ka’ii
raat hii raat meiN ban jaate haiN afsaane ka’ii!

2.
ik faqat terii hii dil_jo’ii ne kuchh kaam kiyaa
varnaa aaye the mujhe log to baihlaane ka’ii!

3.
jaan-e-man, tere shabistaaN ke sivaa duniyaa meiN
haiN har ik moR pe veeraane hii veeraane ka’ii!

4.
shorish-e-dehr! mujhe chhoR! mujhe jaane de!!
dekhte hoNge miraa raasta maikhaane ka’ii!

5.
gham-e-dauraaN bhi, gham-e-dil bhii, gham-e-hastii bhi!
zindagii teraa bhalaa ho! tire nazraane ka’ii!

6.
nahiiN miltaa to bas ik tuu nahiiN miltaa yaa rab!
yuuN to duniyaa meiN masaajid ka’ii butkhaane ka’ii!!

aur ab maqtaa arz hai

7.
terii ulfat ka fasaanaa bhi ajab hai “tanhaa”
tera ko’ii bhii nahiin! us ke hain deevaane ka’ii!!

06/17/2004

hasrat-e-aashiqi! ham tiraa kya kareiN?

Another ghazal that I wrote while I was learning how to write technically sound Ghazals (though I have to say, I’m still learning!).  This one is yet again, a light-hearted Ghazal and was written on a misra-e-tarah posted on urdustan.net forums.
1. hasrat-e-aashiqii! ham tiraa kyaa kareiN?
in sulagatii tamannaaoN kaa kyaa kareiN??

2. ye jhijhaktii nazar! ye hayaa!! kyaa kareiN?
kyaa huii terii qaatil adaa! kyaa kareiN??

3. hamne chaahaa ki ham bhool jaayeiN tujhe
dil magar, sochataa hi rahaa, kyaa kareiN??

4. us ko DhooNDhaa bahut, aasmaaN aasmaaN!
“aa gayaa jis pe dil, aa gayaa, kyaa kareiN??”

5. vaaye aashuftagii!! vaaye uftaadagii!!
ai gham-e-dil bataa! kuchh bataa!! kyaa kareiN??

6. hamsafar, hamnavaa jis ko maanaa kiye
vo hii aaNkheiN churaane lagaa, kyaa kareiN?

7. koii saayaa nahiiN, koii aahaT nahiiN!
aisii tanhaaii meiN, ham bhalaa kyaa kareiN??

8. yeh suKhan-goii “tanhaa”, yeh terii ghazal!!
kaise samjheiN yeh tarz-e-adaa, kyaa kareiN??

09/04/2003